I think there are a lot of things IJ Girl Floorball Team can be proud of for the year 08. And perhaps, this will be the jumping board for the Team of 09.
I can hardly believe im playing my last match tmr. Im just gonna miss Floorball so much! But it has been a a rolling good time, and as much as it could have been the cause for the lengthy U's i'll be getting for Prelims, i dont regret, cos i did my best juggling the two.
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that was yest entry that i didnt manage to post. I shall continue today.
It is the end of A divisions. It came a little too soon. And i miss the squad already. If i could say something to my J1s now, i think it would be to take the time to get to know your squad
now. Cos, after all the trainings and the sweat and the games, they are definitely gonna be more than just your friends - your good friends. They are ones who thoroughly understand how it feels to go to training dreading it but coming out and feeling on top of the world cos you just kicked butt together and the spirit to fght is so strong. They are the ones who understand how it feels to lose. They know your pain. They know exactly how you feel. They are the ones whose shoulder you'll depend on after the game. They are your teammates. Ad they'll always be there for you. So, my advice, Get to know them. Cos one day, it will all end. You'll step down and you'll wish you could do it all over again, exactly the same way.
We finally beat a team. 4-0 against TJ. coach was a little disappointed i think. Cos he expected like a thrashing cos he said that we were the better team, but we were still weak mentally so we still were weak int hat aspect. But nevertheless, he said we fought hard, and i think he was pleased with our attitude.
I passed out my gift to the squad, Fredo chocs and this card that was suppose to be a floorball that was orange due to our jersey colour but i think nobody quite got it. Lela thought they were oranges -.- Im that bad in Art people.
Oh the horror. We watched the VJ VS NJ match and lemme tell you. It was great fun. NJ is a team of spirited individuals man. SERIOUSLY. two goals
down in the first period, and at the end of 2nd period, if im not mistaken, 2 goals
UP. Respect. And they truly did play out VJ. Of course i can understand VJ's pain but they were tired and really not playing their best. they totally let NJ control the game. So, it seems VJ wont be going to semis as everyone predicted after all. It will be Meridien, Raffles, Yishun and National. Well, may the best team win. Hopefully, IJ will there next year.
Im not gonna dwell on what ifs, cos im not gonna wake up and it will be the morning of RJ match. NO. It wont. It will be a saturday, and i ahve to get on with my dull studying lifestyle. Also, i have to face the music and tell my dad my results soon. Oh dear. I feel the dread of school coming around already.
Squad Team meal was fab. I ate with Ci'en, Siti, Lela, Starsky, Aza and Atassha. Im so gonna miss these people! We talked and laughed at Aza until our tummies hurt. It was so nice. We came like 3++? And left at 5+. not bad. We keot bullying Aza. HAHAHAH. "Is this your sole? *shaking a serviette*" HAHAHAH. We talked about boyfriends, jokes and the games. The boys are having training 7-9 today. I want them to go to semis, tho i dont too cos i want the girls to go to semis. Looks like there is no playing at Tampines as ive dreamed about. I wished i'd realise the want earlier. But, nvm, 09 squad will do better. And me and Siti and the other seniors will be down supporting the girls next year, InsyaAllah. =D
But i know, i am glad the Adivs are over. Cos i think im starting to feel the physical drain of trainings. Altho im not in the first two line, i go thorugh the same amount of training and i think its taking a toll on my body. Ive been dozing off during lectures and tutorials and that is not good for my studies. Got to get down to getting it right. More essays, more planning. No more time wasting. I hope all the Floorballers will study hard too. We'll do better for Prelim 2 girls! coach is right, what we experience on court is unique, only athletes know the feeling. And i think beiong on court is the same with being the driver of your life. Theres one shot, make it happen.
Theres one major paper, get the grades, make it happen. You always have to have the hunger to win, or else, you wont win. I believe coach is exemplary. I hope he sticks around.
Im so thankful for the squad and all the experience that came with ebing part of the 08 squad. Im gonna hunt Aza for Pictures now. HAHAHA. =P
Take care people. I cant believe i wont be talking about training anymore. Did i mention? I put on 1.2 kg.
burn,burn,burn them fats!
Monday, July 7, 2008
i cant stop how i feel
oh whats new? Ive found a new metro station to fall in love with. I think im crazy but i cant help myself, theres just something about this band that makes me go bonkers. They make me feel like its okay to hate a relationship, to jump about when youre happy, and even strength to get about your day when all you want is to
freaking sleep in. Get it?
Today's training was one of the most fulfilling and most tiring. Coach truly pushed us, and as much practice that we had for that 3 hours, we aso had breaks cos we trainined with our lines. I was soaked by the end of training. And we got Coach a jersey too! =D With his name, Jamie, printed.
"I'll wear this on Friday", he said.
He cant make it for Weds unfortunately, but somehow, God is kinda telling me that we'll be okay. And Coach too. He was jsut advisingthat we dont let the stress get to us.
AND NO MJ TALK WEDNESDAY MORNING.
Im in line 3. Normally i'd be upset, but right now, im not. I dunno, i love the squad, but i dont think there is a place for someone like me on the first 2 lines, you know. Im so klutzy and not really great on the ball. So i think Jolene and Atassha will do a better job tho im not saying that im not gonna do my best. I WILL. But perhaps, i jsut need less pressure on my shoulders, no matter how much i miss playing with Fathin and Lela. I think i'll leave the first two lines to kick ass.
my free hit practices were really bad! HAHAHA! but amusing. I enjoy playing with Sherry. I feel so J1-ishh cos it seems like im learning jsut like Sherry is. But hey, its still an opportunity.
Love is real (love is real)But thats not what i feel.
You get close
I keep a distance
I never thought
i would miss this
I think somethings going wrong
You can feel it in this song.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
good riddance
I just have to blog.
I feel so damn frustrated. Im in one of those dont-make-a-peep-or-i'll-scream-at-you kind of moods. Ive been screaming at my sis and honestly i hate it when i make her cry but i truly truly cant stand when people make a mess of my room and when all i want is to shut the oor, see everything is where it is and jsut listen to music. the whole house was so noisy with screaming and bickering from m siblings, watching TRL jsut made me more impatient. Reading a book was not as fun cos there were my siblings invading my privacy.
I JUST NEED PEACE SO BAD RIGHT NOW, but nooooooo... you had to leave my room in a mess and make me shout at the top of my lungs from the secong floor.
GOD. Whats happening? I jsut want to get out of here and head to training. Empty stomach or not.
WTF cares? I dont. I dont give a hoot.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Well today is a gift and it makes it a present
Training was bittersweet. Im glad i came. We did some drills before Aza gave a pep talk.
Aza: Who's still sore about yesterday game?
I raised my hand
Me: Oh wait. Did you mean sore feelings or sore body?
*Team laughs*
That wasnt a dumb question right? HAHA. At least it made the team last and ended (at least to an extent) the tension that existed on court.
The conversation continued and i said some
dumb funny stuff again. I dunno. I think we should have more jokes to share around court you know. Not just talk about training itself.
But training was bittersweet and im glad i came. And i think i make a pretty good defender! HAH! Much improved from my first 2 friendly when i was given the position as a defender. Anyhows, Lela could not make it cos she fell ill with a fever. Poor girl, me and siti had made her walk from RP to CWP and with the emotion from R-jay match, i bet it just accumulated to ehr fever. Get better soon! AND COME FOR MONDAY's TRAINING, LELA!!! I missed having you around, and we hada different company for late lunch. Ayuni, myself, Farhanah, Fathin and widayu. I perspired a lot, and am so proud of myself.
I think its a blessing in disguise when coach couldnt make it today. Its like, i think we needed to be together as a team and deal properly with our emotions for this training without coach being too hard on us. Do you know what i mean? I think we kinda let loose a little and could breathe easier as training went on. It was also an opportnunity to get better without coach breathing down our necks, or my neck in particular.
I dont know why im not performing the way i was in TJ, NJ (2nd match) and even RJ. although the RJ match was when i realised i was doing a lot of backhand, which were according to coach, really bad and a waste. I think Prelims kinda interrupted our momentum. HURRRRHHHH. I need to get back to match fitness or else, next week will be pronounce the last couple of matches i'll play in my life which will suck so bad. *touch wood*
There was this fiasco with the MJ goalie at IJ tagboard. I found it amusing, not because of the whole accusation thing, i mean, that was bad(!) but, i found it amusing that the goalie would be there. I shall leave it at that. I mean whats mroe to say right?
Ive not been studying and Babe has. I dont knwo why im treating this like a break when its NOT. I shall get back to studying tmr. Today, perhaps i'll do my lit homework. SIGH, school begins. and more results to come. Oh did i mention, 31.5 overall for math.
I want to put up our jerseys, but my phone is giving me problems and the pics are in there. URGH. The cable or the connection but be weak. Oh well, maybe a group pic!
Gotta get down to Lit. Enough slacking. Im feeling better now.
As my dad says, it aint over till the fat lady sings. Or in Coach's/Aza's words: The game is not over till the whistle is blown.
My stressed up head couldnt even get that yesterday.
Yesterday is a mystery
Tomorrow is a mystery
Well today is a gift
and it makes it a present
Mr White/A cursive Memory
Friday, July 4, 2008
somehow, my feelings changed
im afraid to go for training. i dont know why. I just am.
Im starting to feel very confused.
I felt slightly better after seeing Aza's and Ayuni's tag. Ive such great teammates. I need to do something about my attitude towards games.
I think Fathin's right. I play better when im not so stressed up. I need to unwind my mindset. And remember Lydia's advice. Thank you for everyone who sms-ed me to show concern about the match. I love you guys so much, i feel like only you know how it feels. I didnt even tell my parents about the match. I think its easier skipping the adult advice, when it comes to sports.
This is quite frustrating.
thanks, girls.
but you never ever let me in`
I only have myself to blame for playing with my head and not my heart.
And my head didnt help much cos it was all stressed up and placing importance on winning instead of keeping cool and doing my best for the team.
You want to know how much 10 mins is worth, ask me. Its worth more 5 balls. Cos if we made full use of it, we would have won.
7-2.
We've only ourselves to blame.
Losing is agonising.
We've only ourselves to blame.
We went in with a negative attitude, and so we received a negative result.
We should have more ocnfidence in ourselves.
Would coach coming earlier make a difference? Perhaps.
But we'll never know the answer to that will we?
So, the fact is,
WE'VE ONLY GOT OURSELVES TO BLAME.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
You're my E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G/ Everywhere, everytime, everything
Im getting jumpy. Eggcited. Cos im listening to A cursive memory and their song makes me smile. Imagine someone singing it to you. HAHAHA. You are my e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g, everywhere, everytime, everything.
Love is so amazing. Cant wait for it to blow my mind.
Today, Economics was an interesting lesson. You realise, teachers arent perfect. They've life too. They have responsibilities too. Not just to you, to their family. after all, they are a daughter, a son, a mother, a grandchild too? Two seniors dropped by to give motivational talks. My floorball senior, Nadiah, got 3As and 2Bs. She is like the prime example of how everything is possible if you put your mind to it. her tips: 1) Plan 2) Organise 3) Learn from your mistake 4) FORCUS AND PERSEVERE. She the kind to advice that you shouldnt hang around gossip and bad blood, just play nice, and you'll do fine. And really, all we want to be is fine right?
Words of wisdom. Prelim 1 is over, but not A-levels. Theres still time to step up my game and strategy. this implies to everyone too. Study hard ya'll!
R-jay match tmr. Coach said Raff-les. HAHA, i hope we can proudly say we did our best tmr. no mental block and all that crap. Plus, its at RP. Some ringers are sure to be there. NO PRESSURE, people!
Cheers. Gonna sleep at 10 but first for some music.
Welocome to my dreamiest nightmare
When youre so close but you never get there.
Theres still some things you need to say to me.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
But I didn't want the train to come
cheers people!
Im online. SURPRISE SURPRISE. All thanks to Prelim 1 being over, and now, ive got my eyes set on Prelim 2 afetr the Sept hols. I finally contacted Jessica, and i can honestly say that i'll miss having her around and with me on the table though we spent little time tgt as classmates. Nevertheless, shes one of the most honest and sweet person i know.
Oh! Gravity. Why cant we seem to keep it together?Sounds familiar, safa? Soundtrack to Life of ryan. Cant wait for the new season, i hope theres more of shane sheckler. and the Hills! =D
You know what, i feel guilty. I feel like i didnt prepare myself well for Prelim 1 and so im going to get lousy results. and im going to disappoint and be looked upon helplessly.
URGH. What did i gte myself into? I keep telling myself Prelim 2 will be better, but how do you jump grades? sometimes, you cant help but question yourself.
Oh bummer, shut up syuhrah.
Training was so frustrating. I think im so a Substitute come friday. totally horrendous on the ball. Keep the ball too long. Positioning was so off. Free hit needs time to perfect. Get ready for this. coach is not going to be at our match, perhaps only Weds. Im so HORRIFIED. I felt like crying. Seniors will be helping us out. I really am filled with doubts now. *tries to brush them away and FAILS miserably* Help? I just want to get to semis.
Im off. Im starting to sound like a brat and im NOT a brat! I need metro station i think. Oh, my new jersey is gorg. Or so i think. Well, at least i have torres on my back - figuratively, people.
Cheers!SCRATCH THAT. im not unhappy, im just, a little too restless, a little to impatient.
Dinner At BeefEater. Fish And Chips. P.S: Amin's and Darren BDAY!
Modern Version of Romeo and Juliet, extremely intriguing.
Cool Telephone booths, check, cool mobile statue, check!
How did Cambridge get its name, Well, you had to go over the Cam River. Yes, and they are romantic "canoe" rides under it!
The friend i grew closer to, Pei Bao and the good comical friend i made, Vanitha!
Travelling is tiring stuff, we need YOGA to chill. At the Haworth YHA.
The view from Haworth YHA of the valley of Haworth
Streets of Haworth, plaace where the Brontes grew
Skipton Kitchen with Joey, Afiqah and Syuhh
Modern day inetrpretation of the Beatles
The girls i made friends with! from the left, Pei bao, Vani, joey, Afiqah, Wen jia, Afiqah, syuhh, Rekha!
The peaks we saw from the aeroplane. Lovely isnt it?
The London eye, you could see Heathrow airport fromt he top, and it take one hour to go a revolution. How Romantic!
that's suppose to our impersonation of Sherlock Holmes! HAHA
Waiting For the bus in the freezong cold, btw, the place we were sitting on were wet, we were jsut too lazy to care! and too cold!
LONDON YHA. one of our worst hostels... 12 ppl per room and we were stacked that way!
A river in London, dont think its The Thames, but it could be!
Shakespeare's Globe Theatre
Spore should have red telephone booths, easily spotted, and very chic!
I think this was at stratford?
The guard that never moved, except to march a little. but we were taking forever to take pics! HAHA. He jsut stood there. RAIN OR SHINE!
The streets of Oxford are bustling with Life! Oxford would be my favourite city!
That is the natural hot spring water in the Roman Bath behind us.
Having latte at Costa Coffee~
