i was listening to a song on the radio with those lyrics and its just hit me, really hard.

Ive been thinking a lot about my emotions today. And no, im not bawling my eyes out. BUT, i feel so, wow-ed by these emotions. I think sometimes, you forget to feel. And you jsut go about your day, trying to make it past asap. But today, the sms i received from Aza made me think. The wish i told my mum made me think. The work i did made me think. The Desperate Housewives Marathon episodes made me think. They all made me THINK about my emotions. And i realised that ive been paying so much attention to my emotions. Like its always second, cos i always want to jsut get thorugh the day w/o being so swarmed with emotions.

Aza's sms made me feel so thankful about being part of the team. Like i truly have learnt to appreciate making friends with them. that maybe, they could jsut be more than my hi-bye friends. They could be my friends i turn to when i feel frustrated about training clashing with academics, and they know how it REALLY feels. And it amazes me how Aza doesnt even like to be complimented instead, she takes the bullet for us, even Mr Tan's bullets. And the love i have for playing with Siti and Ayuni, and my closer friendship with Lela and some of the juniors. I mean, the lost bonded us. Cos we were all comforting each other. And some of us cried and we were jsut all there to share the blame. I'd be lying if i said the game is all passe at this point. ITS SO FAR FROM PASSE. I dunno. Maybe, im thinking too much. But, honestly, i jsut visited the IJ floorball blog, and i love the cheer, i love the message put up there, i love the lame jokes starsky shares and i jsut love IJ Floorball.

Maybe its about time i played the sport because i love the sport, instead of because i want to get into the team, or because i REALLY want to be an attacker.

Maybe nik tay's right, that i should jsut play it cos i love it, because then, losing wont be so hard cos you know you'll jsut get better all because you love the sport.

i knew the song was sung by the wise and mellow John Mayer: Say what you need to say. God bless you, Mayer.