time has passed so fast. I honestly dont know whats keeping me alive. Continuously breathing under this heap of expectation, workload and jsut mounting stress. For once, i can say, i am indeed stressed. But i feel calmer. I think its cos i know school is OFFICIALLY over for Term 2 and its back to mugging as starsky says.

I think i really owe it to Floorball for helping to keep my stress level down. I mean, everytime i enter Futsal, i remember Aza's words, that is "When its time for Floorball, concentrate on floorball. And when its time to study, then concentrate on studying." who knew those simple words could mean so much. Everytime i finish training even if i played like crap or well, i just feel so enlightened. So light. It makes me feel good but most importantly, it keeps me focused for at least 2 hours to work on my math! HAHAHA. It just feels really good.

Like today. After training (ive stopped rushing off), i stayed a bit to take a breather in the cold wet evening. Talked to Starsky and Ayuni and Aza. Discussed the mini comp., joked about a bit about god-knows what and then i amde my way to the cantten while they continued to slack there. They joined me at the canteen only after close to one hour later? and they either bathed or well, thats only starsky, played floorball.

OH HAHAH. I was doing transformation and i couldnt do some parts esp with the y square. And they helped me with it! =D I love my floorball team so much. They were all so nice about it even tho i was quite embarassed that i didnt know some stuff. HAHAH. OHOHOH.. okay, not to scare anyone but, oh gosh, the hair at the back of my neck jsut totally stood at its ends but the toilet in the canteen might be haunted man. OH MY. Okay, i know youre now syaing like "URGH. thats dumb" But it might just be true!

Okay, this is wrong to be put on the blog so if you want, you have to ask me. Cos i dont want people getting into trouble for my pure bliss of sabotaging. HAHAH.

Walked back with them and decided to skip dinner with them to go home and take a good shower in the dark (yeah, the light was spoilt). and then went down to have dinner.

I found a pic of my siblings and i back then without Mustaqim. And i was wearing this horrendous chamander (think pokemon) pants that was short for my height, and we all had our own hand-made masks on and we all posed. LMAO. Its so funny. Yet, i could help thinking about all that happened in the old house. All the bad memories and the secrets. And then "would have been's" just popped out. and i didnt want to think of them all. I mean, i was not exactly having the best week, why kill my week that way?

Oh, a funny incident happened during econs lect too. To do with Dominic and Kar Xiu and well, seating. HAHAHA. I was quite embarassed. Hey mel, i didnt jinx anything okay! LOL.

On a side note: this is for babe.

I know youve been making an effort. It hasnt gone unnoticed. your call just slipped my mind, and when i asked in the GO what was it about and you said "nothing" i know it meant "everything". And i couldnt, for some reason, just stop whatever it was i was doing to give you a hug that both of us needed so much. and i felt so guilty. Like why was i not talking to my bestfriend? that movie we never caught, that call we never made. And to think Aza was jsut talking about a movie after a friendly after training. We should catch up, even if it means studying. just knowing youre there right in front of me like youve always been or even tried to be, is so comforting. Im been okay, and i from what i read you seem good too. But well, they always said in PW, blogs are unrealiable sources. So, perhaps, we need more than a blog to keep updated. I love you babe. And i know, these 2 years will only make us stronger. And yes, i think youve become much stronger. And im so proud of you and what we have.

"Though our communication wanes at times of absence, I'm aware of a strength that emanates in the background."
-Claudette Renner