title taken from Paul Twohill's/Here I Am

helloh!

Im all positive and happy cos this week has been jsut filled with blessingsss! Alhamdullilah! The beginning of the week wasnt great thanks to the heavy workload i didnt even touch thanks to math test! So, monday and tuesday were jsut filled with completing the jungle of homework.

And my hard work for the weekend, paid off cos i got 18/25 for my test! WEEEEE. Its a start, isnt it? i hope i can bring back more great news and jsut slowly but surely plant the seeds to my success, for, GOALS WITHOUT EFFORT, ARE NOTHING BUT A WISH =)

also, im thnakful for the manymany friends that jsut always bring out the funny side of me, and help me try to see the joy in life, despite some difficult circumstance! The boys (im speaking generally cos, hell, im biased!) have been absolutely a pain in the ***. RUDE, NEGATIVE, IRRESPONSIBLE, and too top off all that, COWARDLY and plain NASTY. so, instead of always bad-mouthing them next week and calling Boris thio a moron most times when he says something dumb, correction, always says something dumb, i shall just ignore their absurdity and ignorance, cos they are the ones who will suffer int he end. I better watch my step cos i do not want Karma to bite me in the ***.

Anyway, we also had Econs test, which was today. 3 pages but i dont think i evaluated the policies too well! i kept saying equitability and efficiecy, but failed to explain HOWWW??? So, im doomed.

Did i mention, im with palvin singh for history SEA assignment? What (good) luck i didnt have TH and Boris. PHEW! I lovee palvin singh. He hates ppl getting mad at him so he tries to come to a compromise, which is anything but enough, but at least he tries right? And the fact that hes sooo funny and that just wins me over! Im glad i have palvin in my group. But dont tell him that!

And to top off the week... Floorball training. Im more determined to just continue improving! i want to be in A-divs team! Really, i can score, i jsut need more control and i need to just be better at defending! I love being a defending when you have to get up close to the opponent and jsut block his way. I love that, brings the competitive spirit in myself. Today, is cored twice. =) but i think rochester's team totally kept us out of our winning streak! =( HAHA Valhall was niceee.. now, that place isnt much a stranger anymore.

And thank you ahmad for helping me with the directions for my dad. god bless you, and may you enjoy your back-packing days with your brother dude. Take care of yourself okay... and just have fun. =D

Valentine's day is coming. dont you feel the love in the air?? Okay, not really, cos there are couples breaking up. But the love between Babe and I, my class friends, whom i can now call my great joker friends, between my friends, are in full blossom, and i have loads to be thankful for.

My life seems to be settling down now, like everything is just falling into place. I feel the pain of school load, but i still find myself, laughing and smiling and sleping in class and yet, ifeel happy. And something, when im with my friends, im so afraid that things will change too fast. and i jsut want to cherish all the lunch hour we share, and all the jokes we jsut cant take from each other. Im so afraid to blink cos im afraid the moment will be lost forever. Do you get what im trying to say?

Of course i know i cant be laughing all the time and im sure, one time or another, life will get me down. but i cant let it keep me there. Because life is about moving forward too. And sometimes, the pain lingers, and you think that you cant overcome it, but i think, you just learn to live with that pain. Put that brave face on, an just march on. Thats what soldiers do right? Kill till they get numb. Maybe, thats what we do by moving on. somehow this paragraph is making me sad. Im so afraid of running out or being stuck.

Anyway, i asked for an ipod from my mum. Suddenly, i want an Ipod. Everybody has that gadget but ME! How deprived. =( She says when she has the moolah. ERRRR... that means, wait longlong. I dont normally ask for things, i only do when i get desperate, so i guess im desperate for an ipod. I refuse to pay it with my own money! I wanna get Keds shoes with MY money! HURH.


nolove/simpleplan
broken down like a mirror smashed to pieces
you learn the hard way to shut your mouth and smile
if these walls coudld talk, they'd
have so much to say
cos everytime you fight
the scars they are going to heal
but they're never gonna to go away