helloh.

im blogging again. Because that is all i can do now. Im listening to Paramore: When it rains. "why cant you stay just long enough, to explain?"

I read his blog. I dont know WHY, so dont ask me why. Sometimes, i wonder, what i saw in him. Hes still the same person that had me fooled. But i have noone to blame but myself, but that sure as hell doesnt stop me from hating him still right? I read his blog, well, a little bit, but it got too horny for my liking so i got out. =( Ive movedd on. Long ago, and yet.

I feel sad thinking about 6months. How could it all end up so bitter? if i could do it all over again, i would never have loved him. never. i wouldnt have put my heart in front of a forthcoming train wreck.

yeah. You still make me sad. And everytime, someone talks about YOU. All i say is that youre an ass. You will be. Now, and forever. So tell me, Why cant you stay just long enough, to explain? "How could you do it? oh, i never saw it coming." Hey, promises are meant to be broken right? I remember it all vividly. The calls. The laughs. The conversation. The sms. The end.

Im EMOOOOO-ING. SHEEESHHHKEBABSSS.

Maybe i miss having someone to love. Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe that reading-your-blog move was just wrong. I know God knows best. I know he'll bring someone along when the time is right for me. He knows me best after all. He knows my fears, my deep longings the way noone does. And i can only pray he'll bring me someone that makes me smile endless in the future. Not someone who would rob me of my smile for 3 months. No... not you. For i know, I will need as much saving as he does. And when he comes, i'll be ready. But now, Im not.

Please dont mistake this for I-need-someone badly okayyz. HAHAH. Im fiine.

Well, im so over you, so whatever dude. =)