hello.

today was a better day than expected.
TXT went home earlier so thats quite sad, so my day spent mostly with Sheryl Goh. Boris and philip hang out with the guys mostly.

In a summary what happened today?

Well, Mr arzami did not turn up for GP today, so that was free period. We collected class fund, and i read Time Magazine. TXT was having a plitting headache so she rested. I talked to Palvin too! I never knew he ever stayed in Australia! Cool stuff hurh? he left in his "developing years" and thats why he turned out the way he did, so he says! HAHH. Then, we talked more, it was very interesting. After that i heard Philip calling me. EURGH. hahah. i said i ddint want to go to where Phil and Bor was sitting so Bor came up with some lame excuse like he needed to talk about PW to me. HURH. like im a fool. LOL. so, i just said i didnt want to talk to them. They jsut giggledgiggled as usual.

Then it was Math, and math was ok too. =D Sher, XT and I talked to Ms Ng for a bit after class ended about what a disaster Math was. Sighhh.

Then it was break and the guys ate together. and Sher, ML and I ate together.

Then it was Math Lect. That was fun too cos Palvin was behind me and he was sooooo desperate to get me to OCS. HAHH. okay, actually, he had the thought of leaving even if there wasnt a substitute, so he was bribing me with food. For example, a whole week of Mentos - tempting but imagine how unhealthy! And then, he asked " Ok, what do YOU want?" and i joked, let Liverpool win EPL for next season. HAH. and he said, ok larh, second can or not?? i jsut smirked. Then, i asked, okay, what about, Freshly baked Famous Amos?? and he was like, Whats that? Who doesnt know Famous Amos? and he said, once can? and yeah, he continued distracting me all the way through Math. LOL. oh, did i mention he was making fun of what the Math teacher was saying too! The Lamda and geometry word! it was so amusing! Tze Hern was laughing till his face went red! Well, soon Math Lect ended, and we dispersed to go to Econs tutorial. The first ever for this term. I wasnt looking forward to it.

Got to class, and Mr Lim was there. Surprisingly he was pretty friendly. He was being funny and casual and that helped a lot. but when he got to the DRQ section, i was soooo close to falling asleep. but, econs was overall Surviv-able.

After that PW. Confusion and outrage came out then. not from me. not much form me anyway. i just chased Tze Hern and BOr to do the inetrview with the debate teacher but being slobbs, they didnt. so in the end, Pei Bao and I ended up doing PW in the lib. Pei bao was getting a little fired up by the Boys, and i was trying to calm her down. cos, i really didnt want the boys to hate PW again. though i think they still do, but nvm. So, Boris was talking to PB over the phone and then he talked to me, and i sensed a slight panic in his voice. Did i mention the word "complaint" reels him up? yeahh, PB used it on him. SO, he was like "why you so angry?" and i wnated to laugh. Cos i wasnt angry and hearing him flustered was funny. So i said, "im not angry, just frustrated. come on larh.. you did say you would be interview her today!" and he was trying to say how thats not so important, and etc. so i just told him his task again. SIGHHH. i shouldnt be so hard on the boys, at least they are volunteering again to do some tasks. PB asked why i still treat them like my friends when i should be strict with them.... hmmmm... cos they are firstly my friends, then my teammates? i dont know. i jsut dont like to be angry all the time... i guess. i mean, look what happened yesterday!

So, I left school at 2.45 to head over to my place with Pei Bao. She stayed and editted the whole thing till 6pm. But i think it was very productive today jsut tiring cos the boys werent around to help. But nvm, tmr, theres more to do! =D

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Ok, this brings me to the more serious part of my entry.
Yesterday.

My blog entry previously, caused a lot of fury and upset some people. James most especially. Boris read it but i dont know if he was mad about it. but he said he wasnt cos i think i wrote his paragraph jokingly, a bit. mun Ling got a little mad tho' she didnt know my entry but i guess she knew enough.

But the rest of my entry were really quite blunt.

So im here to apologise. Cos i didnt have the intention to hurt anyone's feelings. I just wanted to write about how sucky my day was.

Its hard to explain, i guess. and i dont know if an explanation is what the people ive hurt would want to even hear, or read. So, i dont know how to redeem myself, except to apologise.

Im sorry James, cos i know that i made you angry/pissed/upset about it. But i had no intention to. Well, i guess its up to you to accept my apology. i dont know, if all of this is enough though, i mean, if there was a way i could make it up to you, talk to me about it. i mean, we are.. (were??) friends... so i mean, we can talk. you dont have to talk through ML. i can take what i deserve.




I might be making my blog Private soon. i cant take hurting my friends' feelings anymore. i mean, thats not what im out blogging to do. i jst want to write. my own freewill, you know. So, maybe it'll be public for a few more days before i make it private. which sucks really cos i dont want to make it private cos i want people to read and tag and i guess thats what im going to have to give up. Nvm, it ok. i'll take things as they come.

So... i'll see you. maybe. again. i dunno.
sorry James, again.