i took this tibetan Test thing sent from Safarina. And i thoroughly enjoyed it. i think the answers were to my satisfaction except for Q3. Hahh. but nvm. anyway, there was a question that asked me to write what comes to my mind when i see the word Sea. and i wrote Beautiful. which to me, it is bcos i have had Loads of wonderful time in the sea with my friends. and just this year, during our leadership camp, we went dragon-boating and kayaking and that was soooo much fun!! so i love the ocean and i try not to think about drowning or capsizing. hehh. i still remember okayy.. me and raji were like : there's no way we are going to capsize in this deep a water. NO WAY. hahahaha. so the sea is beautiful to me.

so, mun ling asked me "is my life really beutiful to me?".

Wow.

that hit me. im always saying life is horrid. What with everything. But really, im sure its beautiful right? ive been taking things slowly this week. studying but still have time to read and listen to music and update my blog, or well, i try!! hahah. and im proud to say, im actually liking the way it goes. sure there are some moments that threaten to bring me down. Like Mun Ling's break up. or that the boys in my PW group are refusing to come for meetings. or that, the PS is turning my brothers into monsters and that my dad seems slightly more agitated nowadays. but thats ok, right? its normal?? say its normal!! hahah. Everytime im up, i feel so wary. like im so afraid of falling down and feeling so blue. Im afraid of feeling blue cos it makes me do funny things like being rude to the people around me. cry a lot. makes me stubborn. makes me anti-social. Yeahhh.. im tired of being that way cos i know, that im not that way. i thrive on laughter. thats just who i am.

Anyway, about my week so far. Its thursday now. i studied with Mun Ling on Monday. i think. if i remember correctly. I played badminton with Mun Ling at the ampitheatre on Tuesday and that was lots of funn!! we had ice-cream afters. she said that it was her treat but im SO gonna pay her back. Babe, remind me please! hahah. Wednesday, we had group meeting. Attendance: 2. But later that night, we watched Fantastic 4: Rise of the Silver Surfer as a family. i will tell you about that movie later. im getting the jitters at the thought of Chris Evans HAHAHA. That was so nice... Family time. and thurs, another meeting. attendance: 2 (again). And we watched Sunshine on DVD as a family. double yey as Cillian Murphy ANDDDDDD Chris Evans is starring innit. YEY YEY!!! hahahahah. and then mum called for Pizza Hut. Im so screwed for Friday's Floorball Training. continuously EATING. omggg... hahah. Should i go? i should go cos Coach is gonna be there. He might be talking tactics and i wanna be there to learn. =D to the school lib first. YEY. Floorball. Floorball. Floorball. =DDDD

Anyway, was talking about Fantastic 4: Rise of the Silver Surfer. i think that the sequel is sooo much better than the the first one. theres a lot more of action, theres a real climax which really makes you grip onto y0ur seats, there are surprises, and theres Jessica Alba for the boys and Chris Evans for the Girls. Hehh. I think that its worth a watch because it has a real plot, and the emotions in this movie, are being expressed well, and you can definitely feel it. Also, Chris' character, Johnny, the obnoxious one does make the movie very entertaining. He is definitely the one that plays the more major role in this movie between the other Fantastic 4. Its definitely worth the watch and i would recommend it. What audience would want to watch it? i believe the movie's quite general. there is very little explicit scenes, and its funny and there is a lesson if you think hard. Plus, it teaches you how to work as a team. come to think of it, Why dont you watch it with your PW group members. Wait, im talking about my own Group, that is. *Huge sigh*

Sunshine. This movie is quite boring as it starts. Its draggy and you may get confused by the technical jargon. but, as the story continues, it does excite you. finding the fifth member in the spacecraft when there is to be jsut 4. and finding a way to save planet Earth from freezing to death by planting the payload on the sun. the pressure is definitely on the astronauts. This movie taught me about selflessness, as many sacrifices were being made throughout the movie. there were vulgarities, but there was humour too. And the ending is not to satisfaction as everybody ended up dead but well, the earth is saved. Yeahh.. bummer. the plus side, features Cillian Murphy from Red Eye, Chris Evans from Fantastic 4 and Michelle Yeoh. Yes, Michelle Yeoh.

Well, i think thats about all. Im very tired and its oo43h. im going to let my body wake me up naturally. hehh. Night people. Love.


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Im trying to be positive, but sometimes, life hits you, and you can hardly breathe.
at that moment, you just want it all to end.
but really, all you need to do, is presevere.




thats for you. im not pushing you away. i would never do that. but i want to be happy, and i know, that right now, you dont want to feel happy. so, im sorry. im trying my best to be the comfort you need. i am. i would never do otherwise. i love you too much. i'll always be there. but, you already know that. at least i hope you do. stay strong. you'll get through. i'll help you get through. LOVEEE. you'll be okay. breathe easy.