i was just reading the articles from CNN and Time. about the Virginia Tech shootings. the pictures of the shooter and the memorial afters, just gave me creeps. Firstly, i seriously, think publishing all the pictures of the shooter, cho, was a bad idea. i mean, just seeing it, not being a victim, related to a victim or an american, im already getting the shivers just imagine what those who first-handedly experienced it must be going through now. So, for one minute, i tonight, before i go to bed, im gonna say a prayer for them. and maybe, you should too. that way, there will be loads of prayers for the victims and those affected directly or indirectly. They need comfort more than ever now, do your part, say your prayers. You will be heard.




On another not so sullen note but still quite sullen.

this week has been ergghhh. Horrid. Horrid. Saying that word doesnt even come out with the appropriate scenario of the week. the happiest day of the week was probably MONDAY. as silly as that sounds.


The rest of the week was just bombarded with hmwk. With the lack of cooperation of the class and the ultimate slack attitude, it just made it worse. SO, as you would have guessed, i broke down. BAWLING my freakiiiiing eyes out. i was a wreck. i was pissed, frustrated. if i could, i would have just ran home. Literally RUN. this my friends, is what you call breaking point. by Wednesday, i already felt so DEAD. Tired and exhausted. so, the following days were such a drag. i just seriously couldnt keep my emotions up. it was always positive in the morning, but by 8.30, it was DOWN THE SEWAGE SYSTEM.


well, i got back early today. Like 5.10 and geez, cant remember what i did! man. but, i selpt and did a little of Hist revision. copied and highlighted but i have LOADS more to go. LOADS of lecture notes more. hahah. wish me luck File check: 30 april, Note to self and related others.

oh, i came back and talked to Mun Ling over the phone for like 1hr++. i was sooooo nice to talk to her!!!!! ahhhhh. Its so scary that Boris and her might actually become GOOD friends. HAHH. i miss her. i soooo need to knwo that Hockey Dude. oh the uncanny similarities to Boris. eurrrrghh. Sca-ry! hahh. well, love my Babe Forever.

well, i gotta go. im an emotional wreck right now. i need to get over myself. i need to realise my class is all in my mind. if i can love them, i can surely hold myself together and help them come together and actually DO their work. Either that or there might as well, have a miracle that puts some sense of urgency into them (doubt so). Having a chat with Philip now. sighh, this dude is refusing to tell me. says it affects him "it concerns my heart, feeling, desire, spirit and thinking". and that the time is not ripe. wonder what could be that erm... important.

well, shall update more next week. please give me the strength to go on for next week.. please.