The Believer; A Dreamer.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

I found an article of the TJ VS IJ match thanks to Ayuni's link on the IJ Floorball blog! HAHAHA.

Unfortunately, some of the remarks were:

"Frankly, it was seen to be a rather violent match as there were petite bodies sardined by the girls themselves."

"The match was more or less a repetition of players dashing from one end of the court to another.There were several close shaves, but the game seemed rather draggy."

I saw a pic of me, and frankly, it was unflattering, but for memories' sake. I shall put it on.

I love my Floorball squad. Good game, girls!

Credits to http://redsports.sg/2008/07/12/ijc-tjc-floorball/

Youre So cold, put your hands in Mine

Listenin to: Walk on Water or Drown by Mayday Parade

I dont quite like this band. There is nothing really spectacular. Hmmm.. they are oh-kayy. They sound like bands i listen to back in Secondary school. Angry, unsatisfied, those kind of emotions. But i dont feel that way anymore. so i dont feel for the song anymore. however, i can relate to love songs tho im not in love. That such a universal feeling, dont you think?

But i like their song Jersey. My weekends are kinda wasted again. Ive loads to do, and yet, ive not gotten down to doing it. ITS A DRAGGGG< I TELL YOU. I need someone to give me a tight slap so that i will wake up and start studying! But i think im consulting Mr Chow tmr and studying with Lydia Mak so, maybe thats a start? HAH! Pray hard for me man!

Singfest lineup killing me! URGH.

Other news, ive been eatin like madd. Putting on 1.2kg hasnt dettered me it seems. *snorts* I hope i dont sound bimbo, cos im NOT. Anyway, ate prata and nuggets(??) for breakfast, and ate a great family sunday lunch - as usual and ate like 7+ Want Want milk sweets. OMGOSSHH. No training spells trouble for my slowing metabolism rate!

I was walking to religious clas when i saw this kid playing floorball under the blocks. I went "He's so lucky, and he probably doesnt even know it. He gets to play Floorball and is probably in a club, while i have to study for Alevels. WTHH"

I miss floorball. Yesterday, since i wasnt studying *ehem*, i watched teevee and realsied they was absolutely NOTHING on teevee please. I was getting tired of switching through the channels and finally gave in to watchin the mteevee show Fraternity Life 2. URGHHH. I hate Frat boys and sorority sisters, they dont have these in singapore do they? They are mean people i tell you. anyway, while i was thinking like why wasnt there any good shows, that was when i remembered. I was ~~always~~ well, most of the time, stuck at valhall, staurday evening. so no good shows didnt quite bother me then. and even if i was at hom, i had Prelim 1 to stidy for, jsut like how im suppose to have Prelim 2 study for now. *hits forehand*

I have to get going, GP essay is calling me and GP detailed outline is getting impatient. LOL. Cheers!

Hurrah for a new beginning. Life without Floorball.

Cause Jersey just got colder and
I'll have you know i'm scared to death
That everything that you had said to me was just
A lie until you left
Now i'm hoping just a little bit stronger
Hold me up just a little bit longer
I'll be fine, i swear
I'm just gone beyond repair

Thursday, July 10, 2008

ALL THE WAY.

I think there are a lot of things IJ Girl Floorball Team can be proud of for the year 08. And perhaps, this will be the jumping board for the Team of 09.

I can hardly believe im playing my last match tmr. Im just gonna miss Floorball so much! But it has been a a rolling good time, and as much as it could have been the cause for the lengthy U's i'll be getting for Prelims, i dont regret, cos i did my best juggling the two.

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that was yest entry that i didnt manage to post. I shall continue today.

It is the end of A divisions. It came a little too soon. And i miss the squad already. If i could say something to my J1s now, i think it would be to take the time to get to know your squad now. Cos, after all the trainings and the sweat and the games, they are definitely gonna be more than just your friends - your good friends. They are ones who thoroughly understand how it feels to go to training dreading it but coming out and feeling on top of the world cos you just kicked butt together and the spirit to fght is so strong. They are the ones who understand how it feels to lose. They know your pain. They know exactly how you feel. They are the ones whose shoulder you'll depend on after the game. They are your teammates. Ad they'll always be there for you. So, my advice, Get to know them. Cos one day, it will all end. You'll step down and you'll wish you could do it all over again, exactly the same way.

We finally beat a team. 4-0 against TJ. coach was a little disappointed i think. Cos he expected like a thrashing cos he said that we were the better team, but we were still weak mentally so we still were weak int hat aspect. But nevertheless, he said we fought hard, and i think he was pleased with our attitude.

I passed out my gift to the squad, Fredo chocs and this card that was suppose to be a floorball that was orange due to our jersey colour but i think nobody quite got it. Lela thought they were oranges -.- Im that bad in Art people. Oh the horror. We watched the VJ VS NJ match and lemme tell you. It was great fun. NJ is a team of spirited individuals man. SERIOUSLY. two goals down in the first period, and at the end of 2nd period, if im not mistaken, 2 goals UP. Respect. And they truly did play out VJ. Of course i can understand VJ's pain but they were tired and really not playing their best. they totally let NJ control the game. So, it seems VJ wont be going to semis as everyone predicted after all. It will be Meridien, Raffles, Yishun and National. Well, may the best team win. Hopefully, IJ will there next year.

Im not gonna dwell on what ifs, cos im not gonna wake up and it will be the morning of RJ match. NO. It wont. It will be a saturday, and i ahve to get on with my dull studying lifestyle. Also, i have to face the music and tell my dad my results soon. Oh dear. I feel the dread of school coming around already.

~~Squad~~ Team meal was fab. I ate with Ci'en, Siti, Lela, Starsky, Aza and Atassha. Im so gonna miss these people! We talked and laughed at Aza until our tummies hurt. It was so nice. We came like 3++? And left at 5+. not bad. We keot bullying Aza. HAHAHAH. "Is this your sole? *shaking a serviette*" HAHAHAH. We talked about boyfriends, jokes and the games. The boys are having training 7-9 today. I want them to go to semis, tho i dont too cos i want the girls to go to semis. Looks like there is no playing at Tampines as ive dreamed about. I wished i'd realise the want earlier. But, nvm, 09 squad will do better. And me and Siti and the other seniors will be down supporting the girls next year, InsyaAllah. =D

But i know, i am glad the Adivs are over. Cos i think im starting to feel the physical drain of trainings. Altho im not in the first two line, i go thorugh the same amount of training and i think its taking a toll on my body. Ive been dozing off during lectures and tutorials and that is not good for my studies. Got to get down to getting it right. More essays, more planning. No more time wasting. I hope all the Floorballers will study hard too. We'll do better for Prelim 2 girls! coach is right, what we experience on court is unique, only athletes know the feeling. And i think beiong on court is the same with being the driver of your life. Theres one shot, make it happen. Theres one major paper, get the grades, make it happen. You always have to have the hunger to win, or else, you wont win. I believe coach is exemplary. I hope he sticks around.

Im so thankful for the squad and all the experience that came with ebing part of the 08 squad. Im gonna hunt Aza for Pictures now. HAHAHA. =P

Take care people. I cant believe i wont be talking about training anymore. Did i mention? I put on 1.2 kg. burn,burn,burn them fats!

Monday, July 7, 2008

i cant stop how i feel

oh whats new? Ive found a new metro station to fall in love with. I think im crazy but i cant help myself, theres just something about this band that makes me go bonkers. They make me feel like its okay to hate a relationship, to jump about when youre happy, and even strength to get about your day when all you want is to freaking sleep in. Get it?

Today's training was one of the most fulfilling and most tiring. Coach truly pushed us, and as much practice that we had for that 3 hours, we aso had breaks cos we trainined with our lines. I was soaked by the end of training. And we got Coach a jersey too! =D With his name, Jamie, printed.

"I'll wear this on Friday", he said.

He cant make it for Weds unfortunately, but somehow, God is kinda telling me that we'll be okay. And Coach too. He was jsut advisingthat we dont let the stress get to us.

AND NO MJ TALK WEDNESDAY MORNING.

Im in line 3. Normally i'd be upset, but right now, im not. I dunno, i love the squad, but i dont think there is a place for someone like me on the first 2 lines, you know. Im so klutzy and not really great on the ball. So i think Jolene and Atassha will do a better job tho im not saying that im not gonna do my best. I WILL. But perhaps, i jsut need less pressure on my shoulders, no matter how much i miss playing with Fathin and Lela. I think i'll leave the first two lines to kick ass.

my free hit practices were really bad! HAHAHA! but amusing. I enjoy playing with Sherry. I feel so J1-ishh cos it seems like im learning jsut like Sherry is. But hey, its still an opportunity.

Love is real (love is real)
But thats not what i feel.

You get close
I keep a distance
I never thought
i would miss this
I think somethings going wrong
You can feel it in this song.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

good riddance

I just have to blog.

I feel so damn frustrated. Im in one of those dont-make-a-peep-or-i'll-scream-at-you kind of moods. Ive been screaming at my sis and honestly i hate it when i make her cry but i truly truly cant stand when people make a mess of my room and when all i want is to shut the oor, see everything is where it is and jsut listen to music. the whole house was so noisy with screaming and bickering from m siblings, watching TRL jsut made me more impatient. Reading a book was not as fun cos there were my siblings invading my privacy.

I JUST NEED PEACE SO BAD RIGHT NOW, but nooooooo... you had to leave my room in a mess and make me shout at the top of my lungs from the secong floor.

GOD. Whats happening? I jsut want to get out of here and head to training. Empty stomach or not.

WTF cares? I dont. I dont give a hoot.

Saturday, July 5, 2008

Well today is a gift and it makes it a present

Training was bittersweet. Im glad i came. We did some drills before Aza gave a pep talk.

Aza: Who's still sore about yesterday game?
I raised my hand
Me: Oh wait. Did you mean sore feelings or sore body?
*Team laughs*
That wasnt a dumb question right? HAHA. At least it made the team last and ended (at least to an extent) the tension that existed on court.

The conversation continued and i said some ~~dumb~~ funny stuff again. I dunno. I think we should have more jokes to share around court you know. Not just talk about training itself.

But training was bittersweet and im glad i came. And i think i make a pretty good defender! HAH! Much improved from my first 2 friendly when i was given the position as a defender. Anyhows, Lela could not make it cos she fell ill with a fever. Poor girl, me and siti had made her walk from RP to CWP and with the emotion from R-jay match, i bet it just accumulated to ehr fever. Get better soon! AND COME FOR MONDAY's TRAINING, LELA!!! I missed having you around, and we hada different company for late lunch. Ayuni, myself, Farhanah, Fathin and widayu. I perspired a lot, and am so proud of myself.

I think its a blessing in disguise when coach couldnt make it today. Its like, i think we needed to be together as a team and deal properly with our emotions for this training without coach being too hard on us. Do you know what i mean? I think we kinda let loose a little and could breathe easier as training went on. It was also an opportnunity to get better without coach breathing down our necks, or my neck in particular.

I dont know why im not performing the way i was in TJ, NJ (2nd match) and even RJ. although the RJ match was when i realised i was doing a lot of backhand, which were according to coach, really bad and a waste. I think Prelims kinda interrupted our momentum. HURRRRHHHH. I need to get back to match fitness or else, next week will be pronounce the last couple of matches i'll play in my life which will suck so bad. *touch wood*

There was this fiasco with the MJ goalie at IJ tagboard. I found it amusing, not because of the whole accusation thing, i mean, that was bad(!) but, i found it amusing that the goalie would be there. I shall leave it at that. I mean whats mroe to say right?

Ive not been studying and Babe has. I dont knwo why im treating this like a break when its NOT. I shall get back to studying tmr. Today, perhaps i'll do my lit homework. SIGH, school begins. and more results to come. Oh did i mention, 31.5 overall for math.

I want to put up our jerseys, but my phone is giving me problems and the pics are in there. URGH. The cable or the connection but be weak. Oh well, maybe a group pic!

Gotta get down to Lit. Enough slacking. Im feeling better now.

As my dad says, it aint over till the fat lady sings. Or in Coach's/Aza's words: The game is not over till the whistle is blown.

My stressed up head couldnt even get that yesterday.

Yesterday is a mystery
Tomorrow is a mystery
Well today is a gift
and it makes it a present

Mr White/A cursive Memory

Friday, July 4, 2008

somehow, my feelings changed

im afraid to go for training. i dont know why. I just am.

Im starting to feel very confused.

I felt slightly better after seeing Aza's and Ayuni's tag. Ive such great teammates. I need to do something about my attitude towards games.

I think Fathin's right. I play better when im not so stressed up. I need to unwind my mindset. And remember Lydia's advice. Thank you for everyone who sms-ed me to show concern about the match. I love you guys so much, i feel like only you know how it feels. I didnt even tell my parents about the match. I think its easier skipping the adult advice, when it comes to sports.

This is quite frustrating.

thanks, girls.